I am proud of myself and the weight I have been able to loose. I am proud of my body 3 weeks out of 4 and I am happy. I still have goals and I want to achieve them. Right now I am stuck at a certain weight and need extra motivation to get out in the humidity. If I tell you that is where I am in my journey it's not fair for you to say something like "no, you look good, girl, I could get to where you are and be perfectly happy" or "girl, what are you talking about, you look fine". I don't want to be told to stop or that I should just be happy here. This is not where I want to stop.
and now for an update::
On the 24th of May we drove to Colorado. About halfway, we stayed at a hotel because 16 hours + stopping to change and run the baby in one day is impossible (if you have done it, congratulations). I was really excited and determined to go swimming with Honey (bought and brought a swimsuit and swim pants just for the occasion) at the hotel so that is what we did. She didn't last long and as I wasn't done Honey and GoodLooking went back to the room and I got in the hot tub and it felt great and was relaxing but there was a theater major that didn't want to stop talking so finally after maybe like 30 minutes I had to get out... I was stewing.
We got to Small Parcels house and waited for everyone to get there. It was so great to see everyone and get some news and visit and laugh.
Sunday morning I woke up with a sore throat. At church, it turned into a head/body ache. It continued through Monday while we hiked. No drugs seemed to touch it.
Tuesday Morning I was feeling quite well and wished half the party good luck on their travels throughout the day. Tuesday night, it was decided I had Pink Eye (my most dreaded and feared ailment which I have decided isn't really all the bad except for throwing away about $45 in make up.
Wednesday Morning we said goodbye to the other half of the party and I went to the Minute Clinic for eye drops and ended up with Amoxicillin for strep and eye drops. We went on some really fun bike rides and went to really cool parks and even went on the lake through out the trip but I am sorry to say I don't remember what day we did what but I remember exactly what day I went to the doctor, what day I threw up, and what day I went to the ER. I think it was Wednesday that we went to Boulder. A really cool place to window shop and even take the kids because there was a small splash pad that Honey liked and REALLY didn't want to leave. I think it was also this night that we had really good take out Chinese food.
Sometime throughout the night, I had a really bad earache but I said a prayer and just forced myself to sleep. I woke up and everything was really loud (my ENT said that was because it had popped in the night allowing the ear infection to clear out).
Thursday, we hung out and played ladder ball which is really fun if your other ear isn't in pain. I think this was the night they grilled some AWESOME grass fed steak! I wish I lived closer to Idaho!! This was also the night I went to the ER with impossible ear pain. A 12 on the 1-10 richter. The ER doctor said they couldn't pop it, the Clinic nurse was crazy for thinking I had strep, and there was nothing he could do beside pain pills and antibiotic for after it popped. He was really nice and I was able to sleep mostly through the night with the drugs.
Friday morning (we decided to extend the trip till Monday) I was sick from the drugs and puked my amox and thyroid pills but felt much better after. We had a great day and the next day and church was good. My only ailment the rest of the trip was that I was deaf in my right ear which I made an appointment with my great ENT for for the following Thursday. Our travels were good considering the baby and me being deaf.
Thursday I was able to get someone to watch Honey while I took care of the ear, the still sore throat, and thyroid blood levels. He pierced my ear drum and because I am training for a triathlon we decided not to put in a tube. He checked my throat and said that it is in fact strep and the amox will clear it up and that the duration of time anyone takes amox was tested on strep (he is so smart and I can tell he is very excited about what he does. I love him and if anyone needs a ENT (ear, nose, throat) he is the one to go to). I am also still waiting to hear about the blood results but I feel great so I am not desperate. One the way home, in the construction where two lanes became one, I got in a car accident. The truck in front of me slammed on him brakes so I did and was able to stop but the cars behind me pushed me into him. I am fine and glad that Honey wasn't with me. The car is not fine and is on it's way to either being fixed or chopped into little pieces and sold to other people that need them.
Now we are back to real life and aside from having no car, a cough, and needing to pop my ear all the time we are back to real life. The family reunion was enjoyed most of the time and a lot of people enjoyed it all the time I am sure and if anyone else posts about the reunion I will post a like here so everyone can know what we did and when.
